secret_ironbox

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2008-08-04T07:23:42Z

yo yo yo new livejournal that is if anyone ever go back to this one and see that i made a new one two years later hahah. PEACE OUT!

kittykatisback

it never stops.

2006-11-19T17:04:08Z

I'm stating that today will be the day that I am going to make something of myself.
I made changes, became stronger and more confident, but did not know how to control it, and forget the ones who were there for me from the beginning. I became fake and selfish. The worse that COMES out of it, was me disrespecting myself, telling myself an excuse that it is all for the fuck of it.
I APOLOGIZE to everyone who I left on the sideline so I can take care of my own BUSINESS of pleasure and satisfactions in my life....

secret_ironbox @ 2006-10-24T22:16:00

2006-10-25T05:16:09Z

I wish I can read your thoughts.
so things can be easier for me to understand.
easier for me to embrace you with your needs
I am able to go out with friends.
set my mind off of you for that moments.
but when i get home to an empty room.
all that I do is think of YOU.

not a day gone by that I haven't think of you
and not a day that have gone by when I wish I wouldn't and shouldn't be thinkin' of you.

ladies and gentlemen, once again i'm BROKEN and disappointed.
FUCKEN Ehh.. let me have LOVE back into my heart, cause it's cold as ice right now.

p.s. HOMER fuck you and thanks for making me feel like I'm nothig more but one of your many BITCHES.

the way I try to FEEL

2006-09-27T06:25:46Z

I can't sleep tonight because he is on my mind for the past days.
I try everything that I can possibly do..
talking to another GUY
get CRAFTY
smile more..
but the more positive I become, the more HURT I am.
OH KATHY, why you gotta go dwell on them BOYS.
the ones you don't trust
the ones you don't LOVE
the ones you don't care much for..
but I am wrong now..
because I do care, I do love and I do mind
when HE be flirting and making love to another GIRL, who is not me.
I tell myself not to care, not to regret and not to feel LOVE or be LOVED.

Now that I have been rejected, I am more HURT than ever.
not because he opposed to a relationship but something more.

the TRUTH is.. that I hurt him from my actions.
A heartless, careless and irresponsible ACTION.

I was his first
his secrets
his comforts
but that is all GONE now, because I am no longer a TRUSTING companion.
I should have known better, than go hurting other people
because of my past, because of what others have done to me.
Now it is too late, because I can't tell him how SORROW I am.
in the END, in his mind, I am A HEARTLESS bitch...

it's something real.

2006-05-16T14:59:18Z

Once again Kathy is fallin head over heel for a lover boy. I did not think my feelings were goin to become this strong so sudden and fast. It sounds so typical about what I am about to say, but this is somethin new and real, I guarantee that. We had chemistry from the first day we talked,and how wonderful it feelins knowing he feels the same. Unfortuantely, I have to wait for him to make his final decision, because he has a sideorder girl haha. I told him to follow his heart and that should lead him to happiness. No matter whoever he wants more, I am still here for him, because a person like him is hard to find now a day. A dime piece with a heart and great mind. Because of him, I have reasons to smile everyday. I am thankful for his accompany, and I hope he notices that.

WE have so many things in common that it SURPRISED me. From our personalities to the experiences we had, made me think that possibly, he may be the one. OR I can object these feelings and forget about it and go have fun like how I propose myself to do from the beginning. PERHAPS, it is a better decision because of the experiences that I have had gotten myself involved from the past, because bigger expectations lead to bigger disappointments.

secret_ironbox @ 2005-04-02T12:01:00

2005-04-02T20:02:30Z

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